February 25, 2019: The Loneliness of Heart Failure

One is the loneliest number One is the loneliest number One is the loneliest number that you'll ever do..." ("One," sung by Three Dog Night, lyrics by Harry Nilsson, 1968) If you passed me on the street, you wouldn't know that my heart no longer functions properly, unable to pump blood through my body as … Continue reading February 25, 2019: The Loneliness of Heart Failure

February 3, 2019: What Do You Want in A Doctor?

A three thousand year tradition, which bonded doctor and patient in a special affinity of trust, is being traded for a new type of relationship.  Healing is replaced with treating; caring is supplanted by managing, and the art of listening is taken over by technological procedures.  -- (The Lost Art of Healing:  Practicing Compassion in … Continue reading February 3, 2019: What Do You Want in A Doctor?

January 8, 2019: Flourish: Living a Full Life with Heart Failure

i am running into a new year and the old years blow back like a wind ... it will be hard to let go of what i said to myself about myself when i was sixteen and twenty-six and thirty-six... (From:  The Collected Poems of Lucille Clifton 1965-2010, Young & Miller, Eds., 2012) I recalled … Continue reading January 8, 2019: Flourish: Living a Full Life with Heart Failure

December 16, 2018: When Heart Failure is Too Much With Me

Perhaps it has something to do with the season--the holidays and the year drawing to a close have a predictable impact on my thoughts and mood.  There are memories of holidays past, of people and places I've loved, of family who are no longer in my life, and with them, feelings of nostalgia.  It's a … Continue reading December 16, 2018: When Heart Failure is Too Much With Me

November 26, 2018: Finding Hope in Heart Failure

If a man die, it is because death has first possessed his imagination.   (William Carlos Williams, poet & physician) I've been thinking about hope lately.  It dominates the conversation my husband and I have been having since his cancer diagnosis and surgery, intensified now by the possibility of his participation in a clinical trial of … Continue reading November 26, 2018: Finding Hope in Heart Failure